i think we're alone now

listening to a playlist titled sunnyside up is very satisfying, government homework can kiss my behind by the way, i'm finally done =]

good job on leaving one day of a real summer for me, chiravann, you really know how to get em

i'm home alone and i want to be a couch potato all day, it's the least i deserve

i've realized my mind wanders about a million football fields far when i'm reading, i ask for complete silence, but asking for that is like asking my sister to hook up a computer all by herself. while i was in the middle of my ever so entertaining government book i hear someone singing, but my phone's on vibrate. then esther comes into play in my mind and i start hearing that creepy song she sings, but it wasn't. instead it was barney singing i love you with a ukulele in the background, stupid neighbors, i'm just like woww believing in destiny is on the edge for me right now

i like being at home because i can do the stupidest crap and eat as much as i'd like without people bothering me. it's bliss with my best friend the internet by my side.

i imagine

most girlfriends get mad over the littlest things. never imagined i'd be that type of girlfriend. but guess what?

i am.

but i let it go.

cause i know these types of fights aren't worth it.






it is hot. where was this heat earlier in the summer?

spit sucker

hello blogspot, i don't understand why you are also called blogger, but i support being versatile

the dentist sucked, 6 cavities in the back isn't fun and i found out i make this really dumb, weird face when they are operating, like kind of a squint for one eye but not the other, even though i'm capable of keeping both eyes open, with a scrunched up nose, sometimes i wonder what's going through my dentist's mind looking at outlandish looking faces all the time because their patients are in pain from their horrible assistants that don't know how to direct the stupid mouth vacuum we call a spit sucker

right now i'm in love with mangoes because they are goood and soft, my teeth hurt and spit it plentiful, my breathe will be kicking tonight because i can't brush them, dentist recommended

i lightweight hung out with my mom today, this lady got jokess =]

basically, i'm a hater

i glue into my brain the idea that i hate someone
i stick with it for the longest time
it makes every little thing about that person seem annoying to me
when in reality, its not
they're just being them
and i should except it cause thats why i became friends with them in the first place
so i'm gonna stop hating
these people are my friends
and i'm not gonna lie
i care about them
i say they're annoying as fuck
and maybe sometimes i mean it
and other times, they're the best people to be with to have some fun
cause everyone has their good and their bad, including me
and i'm not gonna mess with any of that
so no more hating
a lot more excepting

i'll try my best to make that my new way of life.


P.S. i am super hungry but my teeth hurt and i'm stressing and i'm gonna have a bad dream tonight. i know it. okay bye.

P.S.S. oh wait, i forgot to say some other stuff.
i'm also gonna try my best to stop judging people. ever since someone told me what she thought of someone else, i always had in my head "oh that person is no good, stay away" but after getting to know her (lightweight) and hearing her story and how much she means to the people i care about, i know she's pretty cool and worth getting to know.

so don't always listen to what people say. get to know them yourselves. it makes a difference.

i formed a new crew

G.M.B.O.D.

Get My Boyfriend Off Dota




just saying..

i miss him. AP homework - gotta get it done before i see him =[

i'm scared to go to sleep.. sorta

so recently i've been having really bad dreams. like HORRIBLE, such as : a guy i know tryna rape me (!), people trying to kill me, and someone trying to stab me with scissors. <- this won't turn purple for some reason, i guess it wants to be different

they come and they go, but they're just really bad and i end up waking up scared shitless.

the dream i had last night might've been the worst. in the dream it's some random guy, my sister and i. we're driving somewhere and the guy pulls out a gun. he starts to shoot me with it (only me). not shooting me so i'd die, just shooting me to hurt me. making the bullets graze my back and fingers and toes just to see the blood come out.
then once he's almost out of bullets, it turns out the last bullet was supposed to be used to kill HIM. wtf? but he "misses" and is still alive.
after that, we finally arrive at our destination. i'm bloody as hell and entering an elevator to a building with a whole bunch of confused people. when we get to the floor of our choice, we're waiting on Vincent and P for some reason. by that time, i'm bawling my eyes out until he finally arrives..

as i write this, i don't know why, but i'm tearing up. wow fml

at that point, i wake up and realize i'm crying forreal. not just in my dream. it's 6 o'clock in the morning and i just woke up from a freakin nightmare. i continue crying for at least 20 minutes.
i'm scared to sleep on my back because i just keep thinking about the gunshot wounds i had in my dream.

i think about texting Vincent but i don't want to wake him up. i couldn't go back to sleep for the longest time so i was just left there to stare into the darkness, scared out of my mind.



but on a LIGHTER NOTE - i went to a conference today. it was very boring. but i got a free tshirt and ten bucks! yay free things and money!

and i did no AP homework today. oh well. i blame AP homework for these bad dreams. stressss



someone give me a dreamcatcher. please =[

you fugly hoe

were you talking about me down there ? well you spend money like paper and buy cookies to make me jiggle; if i'm mistaken, then la didadada =]