so recently i've been having really bad dreams. like HORRIBLE, such as : a guy i know tryna rape me (!), people trying to kill me, and someone trying to stab me with scissors. <- this won't turn purple for some reason, i guess it wants to be different
they come and they go, but they're just really bad and i end up waking up scared shitless.
the dream i had last night might've been the worst. in the dream it's some random guy, my sister and i. we're driving somewhere and the guy pulls out a gun. he starts to shoot me with it (only me). not shooting me so i'd die, just shooting me to hurt me. making the bullets graze my back and fingers and toes just to see the blood come out.
then once he's almost out of bullets, it turns out the last bullet was supposed to be used to kill HIM. wtf? but he "misses" and is still alive.
after that, we finally arrive at our destination. i'm bloody as hell and entering an elevator to a building with a whole bunch of confused people. when we get to the floor of our choice, we're waiting on Vincent and P for some reason. by that time, i'm bawling my eyes out until he finally arrives..
as i write this, i don't know why, but i'm tearing up. wow fml
at that point, i wake up and realize i'm crying forreal. not just in my dream. it's 6 o'clock in the morning and i just woke up from a freakin nightmare. i continue crying for at least 20 minutes.
i'm scared to sleep on my back because i just keep thinking about the gunshot wounds i had in my dream.
i think about texting Vincent but i don't want to wake him up. i couldn't go back to sleep for the longest time so i was just left there to stare into the darkness, scared out of my mind.
but on a LIGHTER NOTE - i went to a conference today. it was very boring. but i got a free tshirt and ten bucks! yay free things and money!
and i did no AP homework today. oh well. i blame AP homework for these bad dreams. stressss
someone give me a dreamcatcher. please =[
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