conflicting schedules and shit like that

can we get an entire day to hang out please? this one day a week thing is working my nerves because it's not even A DAY, it's a couple of hours. and then POOF! it's all over and i have to wait til the next weekend.

all i ever do is complain. i must be really annoying..

i am not a morning person.

first period is not my energetic period.

the end of the year is approaching! i can't wait. i really just want the free feeling of freedom. i kind of want to go to the LIMCA camping trip now. but i don't got the dough to go. hmm, i have some decisions to make.

blahhh

happy Sunday.

yesterday was cool. seniors got fucked up. just kidding, not really.

today i walked around with Eugene and my sister around downtown Oakland and Lake Merritt. went to the fabric store and library where we saw Will and Tiffany. went to watch Iron Man 2 and ended up disappointed. i was already tired and kept almost falling asleep during the movie. it needed more ACTION! i wanted to be at the edge of my seat but instead, i kept dozing off.

i forgot to wear my ring today so to fill my empty fingers, i made a ring out of paper. i thought it turned out pretty fucking hot.

jitters

i'm hella excited for Skyline Senior Prom 2010 and i'm not even going.
i hope everyone has fun! i'm pretty sure my sister will look gorgeous. watch out, Eugene.

who said you have to buy new clothes for every new school year?

i'm gonna go shopping for cheapass clothes and not step foot in a mall.
hitting up Berkeley and Alameda. hello Lauren's Closet.
i feel like i have too many clothes to begin with, so why blow hella money on things i don't need?

did you see what Lady Gaga was wearing?

i used to be really into celebrity shit. i was on justjared.com everyday. i got it from my cousins. i wanted to know what was happening with the latest hot celebrities and what they were wearing. i wanted the early sneak peaks on shows like Gossip Girl. i hated missing a day of my celebrity gossip.

now, i don't give a shit. these people aren't my family or friends. why should i be updated about their daily lives? all i know about them are who they're supposedly dating and what movies they've starred in. this celebrity gossip shit is time consuming and unnecessary. i'm glad i stopped keeping up with it.

now that i kicked the celebrity gossip habit, time to kick the constant tumblr habit.

there are comments on my blogs but i can't read 'em.
mysteries are frustrating. malfunction!

make your own fucking sandwich.

not a lot of people know this, but i'm really into women's rights.
i love feminism. female empowerment gets me excited.
it gets me fired up. especially whenever some stupid guy tells me to make him a sandwich or acts like he owns me.

BITCH, PLEASE.
i am not property. you do not own me just because i'm "supposed" to be a housewife for the rest of my life.
yes, i be getting angry.
i feel like i would've been those ladies that burned their bras back in the day.
OH HAYYY! i like playing with fire.

reasons why,

i don't wear makeup cause i have no desire to.
plus, makeup costs hella dough.

there's nothing on TV on Saturdays.

people need to start being open to try new things. stop fucking complaining. if you weren't expecting to spend money, then why are you here? it's called GOING OUT to dinner.

in other news, this weekend might end up being a bust for me. parents are going through their overprotective phase again. i think it's the mistrust coming into play. this frustrates the hell out of me.

serenity

i don't know why i'm so calm.
everyone is freaking out about the AP exam next week and i'm just going with the flow. i'm studying a little each day. ever since i got my MOCK exam essays back, i haven't been stressing myself out.

i'll get what i deserve. cause that's life.

i'm just waiting to use my huge watergun i won at the AYPAL block party. bouta soak those suckahs ;)

feeling helpless

there's this curse i made up in my head. i never told anyone. i don't even want to type it. i have this prediction that after a certain amount of time, a couple hits a weak spot and breaks up.
its the ___ ____ break up curse.

i'm scared because i feel things falling apart and i don't know how to deal with it.

i'm feeling distant.

where are you when i need you?