much better

unfortunately there's been a breach, the truth can disperse all it wants, but as long as it doesn't poke fun at me in the long run, i'm good to go

sometimes life sucks, sometimes it's the best thing since sliced bread, either way it's still june and two more months of sunshine and humid smelling air to go

she was mine

i'm in pretty deep. no problem with that. i don't mind, but there are lots of things to consider.

don't matter, i'm happy =]

ain't too proud to beg

today was a day for a little R&R, kick back relax, you've earned it day

i was looking through my stuff, notes, birthday cards, etc and BAM i realized i used to be one of those annoying people who rant on in their diaries about stupid stuff that wasn't even important, what a waste of paper; maybe i'm still irritating till this day, if so, i apologize you've had to listen to my stupid conversations

i also found the card, interesting how things change over the course of a couple of months, i went from aww how cute to damn you can kick my ass

we are in the now, i also found out i had sucky handwriting, buy pointless things/clothes i don't wear, and am going to admit too many clothes

i gotta feeling

this is gonna be a good summer, school can suck it. =]

i'm only writing this

as a source of procrastination.

i don't want to study for finals.
can it be thursday afterschool please?
no more schooool!

i can't take it.

i'm dealing drugs ..

for fat people ! i have lovely red velvet cupcakes for you to purchase and love forever in your tummy until you take a number 2

my physics final equals building a bridge outta toothpicks, but kids, this be america so there's gotta be competition, who's can hold the most weight ? and let's say the following went down :

how depressing, but yesterday was graduation and i wasn't kidding about those tears, i'm truly going to miss my lovely's for everything they've done for me and the fun we've laughed through, i'm gonna kick their ass if they don't keep in touch because they were two of the greatest people you meet in life, i'd tell the loner hobo at the corner that any day

on a lighter note, last weekend of the year, then senior year here i come !

i had a definite "screw you" day

i hate being mad at someone. its just a horrible feeling. the only thing worse is when someone's mad at YOU. every time i get mad, i almost feel like its for a stupid reason. its usually not.

so i got mad today. like the "go fuck yourself in the ass" type of mad. i planned on ignoring this person but i had to confront him eventually. so i did. then my dumbass starts to cry. fmlfmlfml. i've never actually cried over a boy before and i feel like a complete idiot cause my reason for crying is not even worth it. then he says sorry. but i feel like he doesn't mean it. he says he means it. but i'm still mad. more because HE actually had the capability to cause these tears to run down my cheeks rather than because of what he actually did in the first place.

i tell him whats going on in my head. he feels really bad and continues to apologize. a couple months ago i would be completely satisfied with his apologies but for some reason, its just not the same. i know he means it but i just can't let it go. he made me cry. i don't want to be this typical, vulnerable and sensitive girlfriend that cries over the stupidest situations. i want to be independent. but i guess my emotions get the best of me.

for now, things are back to normal. at least, thats how we're making it out to be. but honestly, in the back of my head i'm constantly thinking "you made me cry. why am i still talking to your dumbass?" i don't even know why. that thought just won't get out of my head.