monkey in the middle

i hate being stuck in the middle. it calls for awkwardness because i refuse to take sides. it's just not right. WHY ME?

lately, i've been thinking about colleges and what i want to do with my life. you know what? i got all the time in the world to figure things out. no need to rush anything. i'm just going to live life, do my homework, and pray for happiness in return.

HAPPY CAMBODIAN NEW YEAR! we may not get money like all you lunar new year homies, but we get schmacking fooood. i don't enjoy taking moolah from family anymore. i'm young. i got time to earn moneys later.

You know what's annoying? everything, when you're on your period.

I may be slow at times, but i am not stupid

San Francisco

i love going to San Francisco for a number of reasons. the environment is just different from Oakland. i love all the fashionable people click-clacking in their heels. they inspire me. i love the malls and the possibilities that await among the clothes selling everywhere. i love the street vendors where i can buy a panda hat, like the one i already have.

one trip on BART is all it takes.

homework Sunday

feeling pretty good cause i got my outlines done on Friday. boomshakalaka.

mann, so i bought this purple v-neck yesterday and i realized that my friend has the exact same one. now i don't wanna wear it anymore. fuck it. i'm gonna wear cause i don't give a rat's ass, feel me?

so i'm gonna have a "homework party" today and all i have to do are notecards and my french project so i believe i am pretty solid.

UGGGH, i hate that i misheard him because i got so happy when i thought him say the word, "love". but it's all good. he was still tryna be sweet and i adore him for that.

hangin' wit da homies

i'm starting to feel misplaced around the people i'm pretty close with. it's little things that get me. it makes for awkward situations when they talk about a certain topic. mixed emotions. gahhh

i love my old friends. the girls i've known since elementary and middle school. Courtney makes everything fun. i haven't seen her for hella long but she's still the same old Courtney, making fun of me and cracking jokes. i miss all those times i've spent in middle school with her.

i need more time with my old friends. i miss them. i was watching TV with Allison today and i fell asleep and she kept laughing at me cause i supposedly twitch while i sleep. i blame Vincent!

overall, today was a pretty cool day. it was chill to say the least. i gotta visit Tiffany more often. i love her family.

when a heart breaks, no it don't break even

sometimes i get hella irritated. people just like to mess with me cause i'm an easy target.

i had some goods and bads of today. the bads always seem to haunt me until the next day's events. i just want spring break and relaxation.

i'm excited to go camping. =] rolling with the homies. i'm expecting it to be a blast, the combination of entertaining people is ridiculous. time to tan? okay, why the hell not?

i don't know why i give people relationship advice. not like i know shit about relationships. i guess because my relationship is (kinda) smooth, but i don't want to give people bad advice and hear the backlash. too much pressure. i'm just trying to help. but then again, sometimes i "try to help" and get ignored in return because people think the things i say are meaningless and random and totally irrelevant to their lives.

all i want to do is make people happy. but i also want to make myself happy. fuck the world, i'm going to bed.