i have converted to TUMBLR

find me, sykee it's a secret

i really hate

AP summer assignments.



someone kill me now.



all good, one day this will all be in the past, right?





P.S. i also hate dota. i'm a very happy person =]

the good and the bad

hawaii

the good: beautiful beaches, lovely weather, i come back with a tan (sorta), great attractions like the Dole Plantation, pretty views EVERYWHERE, lots of places to shop, you get to figure out your hawaiian name - just call me Lakema =]

the bad: stupid maui divers jewelers trapped us into buying hella jewelry! , lots and lots of tourists crowding the streets, rocks that hurt my toes underwater, 6 hour plane ride with a crying baby (i swear i was hearing like a symphony of babies crying!)

i'm definitely going back. i like getting dark and looking like a true Cambodian. kidding =]

live for everything, die for nothing

there are some great people out there, i met them last weekend
one weekend can change everything, everyone has a hidden agenda, just misunderstood and vulnerable like you and me, i guess this is why the doctor recommends friends ? it's like light on life where the real world slogan is the new buddha

i thought i knew, but i had no idea
everyone has a story, and every story needs its readers

finally my hair is donated, but a skimpy bob sucks at times but it's only hair right ?
reasons why i love short hair [sort of]
-shampoo saver, a penny size is more than enough
-takes me 5 seconds to brush it
-hair tie tans ? who needs them
-finally, my head can breathe
-no more fixing this and that, it is what it is
reasons why long hair is always nice
-i can braid it !
-now i have to put sunblock on the back of my neck
-hair flips are epic
-covers my gross shoulders
-what am i gonna twirl and twist ?!

p.s.
ALOHA .

things that make me cry: a guy named vincent

August 10th at 3:09am

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Avalanche

The stones of love tumbles into the ground
Falling apart and shattering as it hits the ground
Little resemblance left from the huge beauty
My poem won’t connect all together by the way
Again to I want to tell you
These little fights
Are nothing more than
Just bug bites
Hurts and itches now
But gone away forever after
Building again from the ground up
To show up our affection
Misunderstandings and all are just to be built on
Two different species so close together
Unknown to one another, but yet the two are so connected
Hitting off on a level of sight
Only enough for a glimpse
The one species, tall and powerful, is weak
Unable to show the feelings that’s truly within
Hurting the smaller and younger one
Tears of hatred and depression fall down her face
But to the tall one, it is not known
For he doesn’t understand why, but says he does
For he is I and she is you
I can only imagine the struggles
I can only imagine what pain I put you through
I can only imagine ways to make up
I can only imagine you and me together in harmony
To make it happen will go for a long run
Far down the road, will I be committed enough
Far down the aisle, will you still be by my side
A confused young man nearly lost you and could’ve
You, You, were strong enough to hold yourself up
Stayed up and strong to sleep away
For I on the other hand, am still here
Waiting for you to awake again
Finally seeing what’s true to me
My eyes can only see
That’s its really you

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I haven't been able to sleep and still can't. But i feel good inside and happy now and i know you may not feel the same yet, but i want you to know that I promise i will try my best to show you how much i care about you and what you mean to me. I'd hate to lose you just because of me. As i write this tears are forming in my eyes and you may not believe me, but you mean a lot to me and now its slowly dripping down my face. I'd text you or call you but you're sleeping. Believe me, i know i ain't showed much to you, but i'll try harder from now on.

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I've come to the conclusion, Ratema, im glad i'm with you and we had our talk. I'm happy and enjoying life with you. I wish i could tell you this in person right now.

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he's trying. for him, for me, and for our entire relationship =]

we all got problems, let's share

STP retreat this weekend, right? workshops about our families coming to america, games, and serious bonding time.

once we separated the guys and the girls for separate workshops, it got real. we started out stretching and doing squats. then we gave each other GREAT massages. but then we started to talk about sisterhood. we all shared separate stories - life experiences, thoughts and opinions. tears were shed multiple times. but it didn't stop there.

once we mixed back with the guys, we learned how much women should be appreciated by the people around us and saw how the guys really got to understand that in their workshop.
as we shared what and who we appreciated during this trip, we shed some more tears, including the guys. we realized how much of a family we've become in less than 3 days and how we can cry in front of all these people we haven't even known for that long, but we can't even cry in front of our own family members - the people we've known all our lives.

it was nice getting to know these people and hearing their stories and feeling the pain they felt. i feel like by talking about the things that hurt us the most, we're brought together.

best retreat so far. i loved it. the place, the food, the games, and especially THE PEOPLE.

3 days of ups and downs

almost three days straight spent with him. had good times and bad times. id say more good than bad which is VERY good. =]

lots of laughs. lots of video games that he NEEDS to jump off of! game nerd. dota aint your life. yeah, i know you're gonna read this!

jam-packed week coming up. lets go. want my paycheck. safire summer celebration. fun day in 'frisco. and STP retreat. i've revealed too much information already..