inspire me .

current state of union: definitely still pissed/disappointed/all of the above which could be a distraction ? the thing that kills is the fact he wants to be friends, sorry chubbs you can't always get what you want

i don't really avoid my problems, but this is a different story, seems like things have changed and theres no going back, otherwise i'd go back to everything that wasn't trippin' 24/7 on this kid

he really makes me mad, just that simple hey lights the fire under my ass to wanna push him in a puddle, things aren't cool, period and i don't think they'll ever be; really though he's done in my book, outta my life for good which is definitely why i'm mad he's still knocking .

where's my motivation ? i don't feel like doing anything anymore, just nothing; homework is a bust, priorities have taken major lows and i'm just all over the place, slacking . i'm not liking this, not at all, it's not how i do things and its not how i wanna do things, i have to pull it together ASAP because this is getting me nowhere but a dark place with stress pimples, white hairs, and a diet that favors "eating my feelings"

i want to get this show on the road, just do what i have to do, no complaining/whining
just do it .
hopefully thats enough to get me going for the next 5 minutes of "productiveness" because i'm disappointed all this crap has gotten to me, and its changing me for the worst